Sunday, November 4, 2012

Hit Me With Your Best Shot

HA! I showed chemo who's boss. ME. I am boss of chemo. Friday I finally started feeling back to myself and I ate lots. I ate at In-n-Out twice! How's that for protein? The rest of the weekend was awesome, I've felt so good (comparatively). Just in time to get chemo again tomorrow. Hopefully it will go better this week since I am a little tiny bit more healed.
And our puppy is making leaps and bounds! He slept almost the whole night last night and today he walked to the door when he needed to go potty. So proud of the little stinker.
People always say time flies or where has the time gone? You wouldn't think those statements would apply to me at this time in my life, but when Heavenly Father assures us that our trials will be "but a small moment" He really means it. It seems like just yesterday that I was diagnosed. And although there have been times that have gone very slowly, in the long run they are but a small moment of my life. It has been just over 5 months that I have been a cancer fighter. When you think that I have been alive for 270 months and my treatments will end about 7 months after diagnosis, that's barely 2.5% of my life! I hope that in my future trials I can remember that they WILL be short in the eternal perspective. Concentrating on each day individually has really helped me. Instead of focusing on the future and how long it may seem, how far away the end may look right now, I focus only on today. Today I am feeling good. Today I have enough energy to play with my puppy. Today I looked cute. Yesterday is gone, and tomorrow has yet to be, but today I am alive and happy and very blessed.

5 comments:

  1. Kalina, you are truly one of our Heavenly Fathers basket daughters. You have an understanding of him and his eternal plan that many take a lifetime to understand. Thank you for sharing your testimony with all of us and strengthening mine in the process.

    Angela

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  2. You are truly amazing, such a beautiful inspiration, a beautiful spirit and soul. I read your story and wonder how you could endure all that you have and yet be so strong. You give me hope against a cold world. I pray for you and wish you the best. God bless you and your family.

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  3. Kalina,

    I just stumbled across your blog and it's amazing! I was just diagnosed with ovarian in August and had surgery and now doing chemo! I am 23 and was completely shocked bc I thought I was healthy (love to run/workout too) now I'm a skinny bald chick? Didn't see that coming! But I love your outlook and I strive to live like that as well! I have my treatments once every 3 weeks- carbotaxol and I'm scheduled to have 6! I just did my 3rd one last Monday, so 1/2 way there!! But I just wanted to say I love reading your blogs! Lets both keep fighting and kick this cancers butt!! Good luck and I'll be praying for us both girl! We got this!! :)

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  4. So good to remember. You are a wonderful example, I'm so glad that Sterling scored such an amazing wife. :)

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  5. You are adorable, beautiful and so strong. Thank you for inspiring me! Eliza

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